Rockstar's diary update 14th March, 2012- main zindagi ka saath nibhata chala gaya- barbadiyon ka jashna manata chala gaya
kehte hai, ki ishq aur mushq chupaye nahi chipta
fir kyon mujhe tumhara woh pyaar nazar nahi aata
haan tumhe mera khayal hai
haan tumne hamesha ek dost ki tarah meri madad kari hai
haan tum mere liye sab se ladne ke liye tayar ho
fir kyon tum mere rukhe swabhav ke piche chipe mere pyar ko nahi samajh payee
kyon jab maine talaak ke liye kahan, meri baat maan li
kyon tum yeh nahi samajh payee ki aaj bhi meri zindagi mein ek humsafar ki kami hai
kyon tum yeh nahi dekh paaye ki jab tumhari aankhon se aansu behte hai, takleef mujhe bhi hoti hai
aur jab tum muskurati ho, to sukun mujhe bhi milta hai
kyon tum kuch kehte kehte ruk jati ho
kyon tumhare kadam meri taraf uthte to hai, magar fir khud ba khud ruk jate hai
kaun sa fansla hai jo tum tay nahi kar paa rahee ho
kyon chah kar bhi mujhe tumhari aankhon mein woh apna pan nazar nahi aata
Who am I, I am an akdu person
It was a difficult day in court today, because I was almost proclaimed guilty for a crime that I had never committed. Why did I not tell the truth in the court, that I didn't say ilikeyou Richa, I could have questioned the witness that did you hear me say Richa.
Why did Richa bring in that witness, was she sure that I wouldnt tell the truth in the court, that I wouldnt admit my true feelings in the court in front of everyone?
Later, the entire family was at home, rueing the bad day in the court and mourning my sad fate.
Why was I left alone in all this to while away my sorrow with a drink?
Why was Seema, my dear SIL/sister not there with me to console me, probably because she is my well wisher, but she is still not my confidante.
Why was my father, the one who is proud of me, not with me to console me, probably because he tries to understand me, but doesn't always succeed, there is a distance between us which only Anand or my mother could bridge
Why was my wife, the one who likes me, around but still not there to console me
Do I miss a close confidante,
someone with whom I can be me,
someone who doesn't judge me,
someone who isn't looking for a tit for tat with me?
someone who doesn't count when I didn't follow the niceties of saying a thank you/sorry but someone who counts all the times I was there when they were sad
Someone who doesn't count all the times I didn't follow the niceties of a valentines day but
someone who counts all the times I made them smile
someone who counts all the times I was there when they needed someone
How is it ?
I know in this post I have gone against Siddhi..but I think her tit/tat attitude is not correct. And again no intention to debate..
, I am just writing a diary !!!
, I am just writing a diary !!!
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