A page in the viewer's diary- 27 th Feb
They say, never say never again. I had started with a happy post for Kunal and since then he has been making me cry buckets...I am not justifying his actions or arguing for/against him-just what I feel (i think this is not so great a post 
because there was hardly any Kunal in today's episode).
because there was hardly any Kunal in today's episode). And of all things, this is probably going to be a post in English
I have slowly build a wall around myself, brick by brick,
Every time someone comes to break it, I unknowingly make it more harder for others
The more I am hurt inside, the more I hurt others
The more someone loves me, the more I hurt them
I wish someone could understand me,
I wish I could explain myself to someone,
Every time I try to convince others of my behaviour, it is actually myself I am trying to convince
Every time I convince others that I am just doing my duty, it is actually me bound to others by love
The more you try to help me, the more I feel incapable
The more you avoid me, the more I feel unwanted
Every time I am angry at you, it is myself I am more angry with
Every time I say I dont need you, all the more I need your assurance
Every time I say leave me alone, I mean I need your comfort and security
I dont know why is it so hard to tell what I think and what I feel, probably I myself dont know what I feel !
It is just that you need to try harder to break the wall I have erected
(Do I trust Siddhi, yes I do otherwise
why would it hurt me when she snubbed me on the dining table
I convinced myself that I went to the party just because Siddhi would like it, but why should I care what Siddhi likes
why unknowingly do I look towards her when things arent going right for me
it is just that in anger, I didnt know what to do, I just let out my frustration
probably it hurts me that she doesnt care for me enough
)
All I need to do is tell her Sorry, because I know she is the only one who can help me.
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