This is Kunal's diary for 23/March-I want you for myself and not for my family
Aaj kamre mein ek ajeeb si khamoshi thi
Waise to Siddhi us kamre mein nahi thi
Magar shayad woh har jagah maujud thi
Jaise, har kone mein koi ek yaad basi thi
Waise to jab jab woh tokti thi to chid bhi utthit thi
Magar aaj lag raha tha, koi to mujhe tok de
Kaise woh har samay mere aage piche ghoomti rehti thi
Waise to har baar main use santwana deta tha uske aanso pochta tha
Magar aaj lag raha tha, woh aakar keh de ki sab thik ho jayega
Waise to zindagi jaise taise kat hi rahi thi
Magar aaj lag raha tha ki zindagi mein kuch to kami hai
Waise to kisi ke bina zindagi rukti nahi hai
Magar aaj jaise kuch kho gaya tha
It was a long and eventful /unending day for Kunal, starting with the holi celebration to hearing about Siddhi's potential kidnap.
The yester year's Kunal would have raged like a mad person at T and Co, but he probably realised that this would not only harm his case but also put Siddhi in danger. So he did something which he generally doesn't do, he thought before taking action. He rationalised everything and took the police with him.
He probably knows that T has only kidnapped her so it gives him an additional comfort that T cannot kill her, after all he is a respectable person and will not do such a grave crime as a murder. Further Kunal has been in the profession of law for close to a decade, so he knows the ways of the world and knows that these things do happen (I know kidnap of a third person and kidnap of Siddhi cant be compared, but he has probably seen this so it is not a big surprise for him, and he kind of knows that T will not physically harm her). And Kunal is not the one to worry about someone's food and water etc, I am sure he will not eat and all this will happen gradually.
Kunal is shown to be a reserved person, who doesn't open up to people, infact he is shown a man of few words in key things, he is short tempered and can express anger but not other emotions. It is his diary that he really opens up to, he doesn't tell anything to his father also, but that trickle of the tear was enough to show how worried he was. And the slump, he just slumped on the bed, it showed his frustration and helplessness.
Further, Kunal already knows that he likes Siddhi a lot and cares for her, but today they showed that he wants her in his life just as much. I just feel sad that he doesn't have a good recollection of the holi confession, it is an important moment of his life, which sadly at this point he doesn't remember.
I think the like/lv has various shades, he has feelings for her, but today they showed that he wants her to be in his life and he has accepted it and acknowledged it and probably is willing to fight for her and not give up on her.
I can remember the english song,
[I'd love you to want me the way that I want you
the way that it should be]
I think it is a good feeling to be wanted !!!
I am not justifying his actions, but putting across my views. Thanks to Annie and other IF forum members, I may have presented your views in other words, hope it is not a complete copy !!! Thanks for reading
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